Wednesday, January 5, 2011


Since coming home things have gone really well. She sleeps all day and sometimes even a little at night!! :) The timing couldn't have been more perfect. Russell had a full week before he had to go back to school and work and that made it so that we could each take a kid and give them all our attention.

She's such a sweet little girl. It's amazing how she was inside of me a week ago and now it seems like she's always been here. Gosh, it's such a relief not to be pregnant anymore. Being pregnant is seriously really hard! Having a newborn is hard, but nothing compared to being pregnant (or at least that's how it is this time around. last time was a different story. it all sucked. but I still love you Jonas!). I dunno, maybe it's still a little too close to look at it impartially, but being pregnant really stinks... phew. IUD here we come.

That being said, I really love our little family. It's kind of crazy having kids so close together but I don't regret it for a second. I feel peace and confidence in our choices. I'm so excited to watch our kids grow up together. It's so fun to see Jonas running and dancing around, remembering how he was a year ago, and knowing Gwen will be like that in a year.

I love being a mom and wife and sharing all of these experiences with Russell. It's amazing how having another kid changes things. I've heard people say that they were worried to have a second kid because there's only so much that one person can give. But having another kid, loving another person that much only increases the love that I have for Russell and Jonas. It's like the more you love the more you can love.

There are a lot of seeming paradoxes in the way that this life is set up. How the more you work to make others happy, the happier you become yourself. That the only way to have a full life is to forget yourself and just completely serve others. No wonder life is set up so that families are what we do. What better way to force us to learn the lessons of life and happiness! I think that if I was left to myself I would probably wimp out and just try to make myself happy (and thereby make myself miserable) if it wasn't for these cute little people being dependent on me. Heavenly Father really knew what he was doing.

Gwen's so tiny. her clothes kinda hang on her. Sometimes she wiggles in her clothes and swaddling and ends up all tangled. In the above right she managed to get her arm out of her sleeve and stuck up by her neck. It's so fun to be her mom and know that I'm going to be there every step of the way to see every cute little thing that she does. Of course, that also means that I'll be there to change all the diapers too. Meh, you win some, you lose some.

(PS - despite the state of my hair in these pictures I actually have got it to a length where it's generally pretty good. I've had a hair epiphany and suddenly remembered how to do it at this length. You'll just have to take my word on that.)

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